Just letting you know I'm alive

I haven't been active on this blog lately, and it is a shame. It's supposed to help me promote myself and my work. There just hasn't been any time for it so far.  I've been so busy packing my apartment into tons of cardboard boxes that I haven't really been able to do any creative stuff at all.
This weekend I'll be attending Desucon in Oslo, and hopefully I'll have some nice photos to show from it, and also hopefully a little profit. I could really use some extra cash by now.

I'll just leave you with a photo of me from a gothic circus themed photoshoot Sunniva and I took part in last weekend. Photo was taken by my good friend Adriane Vinter. 

Porn!

I just finished my semester project. It was about porn..Gods only know why I chose to work with this but it was actually quite fun.

I wanted to see if people would react differently to pornographic material if it was taken out of it's usual context and made to look like something else? Would people even consider it to be porn or just erotic illustrations?

The answer is yes. People have reacted very differently. When I have shown them my illustrations some think it's childrens books illustrations before they get a closer look. Some people just laugh and think the whole concept is hilarious. Others again blush a little and giggle. But no one, not even a single person has been offended in any way, or thought that the pictures were disgusting or pornographic. So I would say that the project has been highly successful. 

Now I am aware that making sexual illustrations isn't exactly new. Naked women have been painted before as muses, it is when they cease to be a muse and are just naked women on divans that people have reacted. I wanted to experiment with the whole concept. Have people moved on? Does the taboo of naked bodies performing sexual acts still make people feel dirty? Does religion still come into play? Does feminist views affect the reciever?

Of course people are still affected, of course all of these things play a part in how we percieve something, but so does presentetation. If I had shown anyone a printed screenshot from a porn flick, people would think it gross, and ask me why the hell I was showing it to them. But when presenting the same material in a different medium, a different expression people loose a lot the associations they usually have towards porn.

Well, enjoy :P

Title: Pussyjuice

 
Title: Sit on it baby

Title: Lick it!

Title: I love cock


Title: Deeper Harder


Title: Are you sure this is right?


Title: Oh God, don't stop

Out of Breath

I take a swig of my flask,
a taste of drunken scenery.
Sweet toxins running into me.
I bring a cigarette to my lips,
a kiss of death, I needed this.

I've been decieved for far too long,
I wear this mask,
and they think me strong.
I wish that I could love you still,
but now I know I never will

And so I return to my flask and cigarette
with a heavy heart and out of breath...

This is an old poem, written when I was 16-17 or something like that. I had almost forgotten about it in the mists of time, but found it again today, and thought I would repost it. I was heartsick when I wrote it. I had been in a relationship with someone I saw some good in, and that I saw potential in, but who constantly disappointed me. At this time I saw sense and realized it was time to cut my losses and just get over it. So I wrote this poem and went outside on my porch and lit a cigarette. I really am a silent drama queen when I think about it, a melancholy goth girl who thrives artistically during hardship.

Little me

There is much to say about little me,
but so hard to find the words
There are many hidden things inside of me
that no one ever learns

Little secret spaces
spaces that want to be liberated
that want to reveal their hidden worth

There is a lot of dream inside of little me,
so hard to set it free
There are flaming wishes raging inside of me
so wildly it burns

Little sparkling bonfires
bonfires that shine a guiding light
illuminating the pathways I must tread

I'm in a funny mood these days. I've been living on painkillers and antibiotics this week after I got one of my wisdom teeth pulled out. I am under a lot of stress. I'm making a magazine cover, finishing a large school project and trying to do some self promotion work, and prepare an Artstand for Desucon 2010. It's all a lot to handle all at once and I always work so hard to make everything work out in the end. I try to do my very best, I try so hard it wears me out. I've become a workoholic. Something I never thought I would be. It's not healthy.

Things usually work out in the end. I just have to keep up the work and cross my fingers and not let the stress get to me.

Wolverhampton here I come

As of September 2010 Wolverhampton will be my home. I've just been accpeted to their BA Hons illustration course. This is very exciting for me. After waitng for my papers since the middle of January it was about time they finally arrived. I was afraid they wouldn't arrive at all. I signed the paper scanned them, e-mailed them to Go study, and the in turn are sending the papers to the university.

This is where I will be studying, at the university of Wolverhampton City Campus ^^

Letter designs

We've been designing letters recently. This was a small assignment we did as a part of the pamphlet design assignement. We still had to be inspired by water in some form, and then find a clever way to make a stylish and readable letter.
I came up with a koi fish design that I decided to put inside a simple bold "V" shape, and a second design which was inspired by running watercolors.

This is how they turned out:

I think they both turned out great. They are very different from each other. The A is a little softer and subtle. The V is more graphic I guess you could say. I can't really say which one I like the most, as I think they are both good representations of the work that I do. I prefer them in black and white, becuase I usually work with black and white. Although when printed the V was printed in a lovely gold. I'll try to get a picture of it up on the net sometime soon.

The 13th issue

Yaaay, the thirteenth issue of Crow Toes Quarterly finally arrived.
Kind of cool to finally hold a real life copy of the magazine in my hands.

This is the cover of the magazine, my illustrations can be found on my blog in a previous post called illustrations for crow toes quarterly.

 

Although the print version doesn't really do my illustrations justice (they look very different on the screen) It's still really cool.

I'll be sending a copy to my mom, she's my biggest fan after all :P